Dancing in the Dark/No Surrender – What keeps us human is the ability to keep dreaming. Those romantic dreams remain forty years later. #MusicisLife #TedTocksCovers #BruceSpringsteen #StevenVanZandt

It’s been forty years since Bruce Springsteen released his ‘Born in the U.S.A.’ album.

Forty years?

I recently saw a clip from Canadian actor Brent Butt where he candidly pointed how rapidly the years are flying by.

Okay I just did the math and here is how it how it breaks down. If I, today, listen to music that was popular when I was in high school it’s the same as high school me, listening to music that was popular during World War II. Isn’t that a fun numerical tidbit that isn’t the emotional equivalent of a rhinoceros standing on my groin.”

It may sound better coming from him.

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But we can’t stop time. We can look back through the years because this album brings back great memories. Let it be said here and now that ‘Born in the U.S.A.’ is by no means Bruce Springsteen’s best album nor does it approach the top of my list of favourites from The Boss, but it does offer one of my favourite Springsteen songs. Read on for more, as we take a trip through the past.

Back in the early ‘80s, Bruce Springsteen was on an incredible run. Following ‘The River’ he managed to shift gears with the haunting acoustic release, ‘Nebraska’. Pretty much simultaneously, he was working on material that would become ‘Born in the U.S.A.’ Trying to sort through the timeline of his prolific creativity during this period is the source of endless fascination. It is estimated that he wrote over 80 songs during this two-year creative exploration. With so many songs to choose from it became a matter of sorting it all out and then deciding the most suitable way to present the versatile tracks. In the end, this may be ‘Born in the U.S.A.’s greatest quality.

It’s rock and roll, folk and rockabilly with a touch of ‘80s synth pop and some obvious commercialism. This point brings us to phase one of today’s feature.

Bruce Springsteen thought he was done, but Jon Landau insisted that he write something that could be offered to the radio market as a lead single. For about a decade Springsteen had flown close to the space where #1 records reside. He wrote ‘Blinded By the Light’ which became a #1 for Manfred Mann. He co-wrote ‘Because the Night’ with Patti Smith, and later in the ‘70s ‘Fire’ was a hit for The Pointer Sisters.

In 1982, he released ‘Nebraska’ which was a complete departure from ‘The River’ so as much as his popularity was seemingly at its peak, it was Landau’s contention that he needed to come out strong with his next album. This approach didn’t sit well with Springsteen, because he felt it may come across as contrived. Following an evening of heated debate, he went home and wrote a song about what he perceived to be the pressure to produce, and how at times this was at odds with his integrity as an artist.

Jon [Landau] had been bothering me to write a single, which is something he rarely does. But he did that day. And he wanted something direct. That seemed to be what he was hitting on me for at the time. I was angry. I had written a lot of songs and was kind of fed up with the whole thing. We’d been making the record for a long time and I was bored with the whole situation.”

He made his way home and rather than go to bed angry he began to write down his thoughts. It became a classic case of, if you ever want to know how you feel, start writing.

Forty years later we marvel at the result.

I get up in the evening
And I ain’t got nothing to say
I come home in the morning
I go to bed feeling the same way
I ain’t nothing but tired
Man, I’m just tired and bored with myself
Hey there baby, I could use just a little help

You can’t start a fire
You can’t start a fire without a spark
This gun’s for hire
Even if we’re just dancing in the dark

Message keeps getting clearer
Radio’s on and I’m moving ’round the place
I check my look in the mirror
I wanna change my clothes, my hair, my face
Man, I ain’t getting nowhere
I’m just living in a dump like this
There’s something happening somewhere
Baby, I just know that there is

You can’t start a fire
You can’t start a fire without a spark
This gun’s for hire
Even if we’re just dancing in the dark

You sit around getting older
There’s a joke here somewhere and it’s on me
I’ll shake this world off my shoulders
Come on, baby, the laugh’s on me

Stay on the streets of this town
And they’ll be carving you up all right
They say you gotta stay hungry
Hey, baby, I’m just about starving tonight
I’m dying for some action
I’m sick of sitting ’round here trying to write this book
I need a love reaction
Come on now, baby, gimme just one look

You can’t start a fire
Sitting ’round crying over a broken heart
This gun’s for hire
Even if we’re just dancing in the dark
You can’t start a fire
Worrying about your little world falling apart
This gun’s for hire
Even if we’re just dancing in the dark

Imagine being at the height of your popularity and feeling like this? In hindsight, we know that he still hadn’t hit the peak of a career that is now over a half century and counting.

When all was said and done, ‘Dancing in the Dark’ made it all the way to #2 on the Billboard Hot 100. It was prevented from hitting the summit by Duran Duran and ‘The Reflex’ and later ‘When Doves Cry’ by Prince. The fact that ‘Dancing in the Dark’ didn’t make #1 was of minimal consequence because over the next 18 months ‘Born in the U.S.A.’ managed to produce a staggering, seven top 10 singles.

‘Cover Me’ – #7

‘Born in the U.S.A.’ – #9

‘I’m on Fire’ – #6

‘Glory Days’ – #5

‘I’m Goin’ Down’ – #9

‘My Hometown’ – #6

This became a source of intense pride for Bruce Springsteen because through it all, despite all of his misgivings, self-doubt, intense pressure and scrutiny he managed to do it his way.

I love this quote from the man himself.

My ‘Born in the U.S.A.’ songs were direct and fun and stealthily carried the undercurrents of ‘Nebraska’.”

For this listener, ‘Nebraska’ is the epicenter of the Bruce Springsteen library. Everything flows from that space. The fact that so much of ‘Born in the U.S.A.’ was created within that time period only lends itself to the value of these songs.

When commercialism is organic it cannot be criticized. In many ways it was the perfect storm and Bruce Springsteen steered the ship through some turbulent waters.

Through the years there have been several magnificent covers of ‘Dancing in the Dark’. Part of the beauty of sharing this feature has been spending a lot of time listening to them as I write. Like so many times before, it has given me the opportunity to hear this song again and truly understand where Bruce Springsteen was coming from when he wrote it. From the outside it seemed as though Bruce had it all, but he was making it pretty clear that his life was lacking something. If you have read Bruce Springsteen’s autobiography ‘Born to Run’ you will understand his struggles with self-doubt and depression. Being pushed by Jon Landau in this period would have created significant internal conflict between his musical integrity and his desire to be the best.

Ironically, the vast range of emotions Bruce Springsteen was experiencing as he seemingly conjured ‘Dancing in the Dark’ out of thin air may be reflected best in this cross section of covers. Check them out for yourself and you will see what I mean.

Enjoy a revitalized Tina Turner who delivers it in her ‘in your face’ style. If we could bottle that energy. What a gift.

When I saw that Mary Chapin Carpenter was among the 100+ artists who have covered ‘Dancing in the Dark’ I was intrigued, but when I listened to it, I was instantly blown away, right from her honest introduction.

This is a bummer song by somebody else. “

She delivers this like she was standing over Bruce’s shoulder when he wrote it. Mary released this on her 1999 album ‘Almost Home’.

In 2002, Pete Yorn broke out with his acclaimed album ‘musicforthemorningafter’

This captures the mood. The harmonica makes it very contemplative and the piano brings the emotion of the cover to a boiling point.

A few years later in 2006, Tegan and Sara blended their captivating vocals with Bruce Springsteen’s honest lyrics and this was the result. I love their harmonies. The guitar work is a powerful companion. They repeat “There is something happening somewhere” which tells the story. The songwriter feels like they are missing something. Life is passing them by.

Listen to this version by Scottish singer/songwriter Amy MacDonald who explains that this is actually a cover of her own cover. She delivers like it is sage advice with the orchestral accompaniment of The German Philharmonic Orchestra. This is from a live performance in 2010.

One year later in 2011, here is former Straycats bassist Lee Rocker offering his take on ‘Dancing in the Dark’. He keeps it simple and then it builds. This cover has a nice groove like a train picking up speed.

I first heard Ruth Moody’s cover version of ‘Dancing in the Dark’ on Tom Power’s morning show on CBC Radio. Each morning Power did a segment called ‘Under the Covers’ where he offered a quality cover version of well-known songs. So many times, he exposed me to new artists and the breadth of talent that existed far outside of the mainstream. Upon reflection, this may have been the first cover of “Dancing in the Dark’ I had ever heard. So, in this moment I offer my thanks to Tom Power who now hosts the incredible CBC interview show called ‘Q’ which is also a must listen for music and entertainment fans. This segment is among a handful of shows that inspired Ted Tocks Covers. It says here, that Ruth Moody should be a household name in Canada. Check out the work with her band or as part of the Wailin’ Jennys.

Another artist that I first heard on ‘Mornings with Tom Power’ was Vance Joy, who is from Melbourne, Australia. Around the time he burst onto the music scene with ‘Riptide’ he put together this tidy cover of ‘Dancing in the Dark’ which he performed on Sirius XM’s ‘The Spectrum’ channel. This is so good. Just a guy and his guitar. Strip it right down and it bares the soul of the artist who is delivering the message.

Here we have another special message. Enjoy John Legend who enjoys a mutual admiration society with Bruce Springsteen. Legend explains how he came to admire Bruce Springsteen’s work as a result of his association with Jimmy Fallon’s band. During the conversation, Howard Stern captures exactly why I write Ted Tocks Covers.

I love when an artist like yourself takes something that you’re not typically into and you kind of make it your own.”

Quest Love helped him make a cool, jazzy, dark version and the end result was getting street cred from Bruce Springsteen’s loyal fans.

Just listen.

Looking back, it is hard to imagine thirty-five years ago and thinking that we would be listening to an industry giant like Trevor Horn adapting Bruce Springsteen’s iconic release. Here is Trevor Horn with The Sarm Orchestra and Gabrielle Aplin. This is stunning.

Remember ‘Beautiful’? Here is James Blunt and an equally beautiful cover of ‘Dancing in the Dark’. This time the piano becomes the focal point and it delivers the emotional side of Bruce Springsteen’s very personal lyrics. This is from BBC Radio 2 and the Zoe Ball Breakfast Show.

Remember the opening clip of today’s feature that addresses the reality that time is simply flying by? Here is a band called The Molly Ringwalds who Ted Tocks Covers has featured on several occasions. They do a great job capturing the nostalgia of the ‘80s. This helps us to accept that almost forty years have passed since ‘The Breakfast Club’ and ‘Sixteen Candles’.

I See Me, And I Don’t Like What I See, I Really Don’t.”

One thing is for sure, mental health was a serious issue four decades ago too. It was all in the nuance. It was difficult to come right out and say it. We have come a long way, but there is still a long way to go.

This segues nicely into a phenomenal Canadian act called Walk Off the Earth who have been huge advocates for mental health related initiatives (see ‘You Don’t Know How it Feels’)

Keeping it north of the border, here is the talented Shawn Mendes who brings The Boss to a whole new generation. Mendes is another artist who has been very open about his mental health issues. He famously opted to take some personal time to revitalize himself. The message keeps getting clearer.

I get up in the evening
And I ain’t got nothing to say
I come home in the morning
I go to bed feeling the same way
I ain’t nothing but tired
Man, I’m just tired and bored with myself
Hey there baby, I could use just a little help”

The current generation does it their way. They have it right.

Before I sign off, there is a song from ‘Born in the U.S.A. that says more about Bruce Springsteen’s career than any other. For that we need to thank Bruce’s blood brother; the great Little Steven Van Zandt. During the recording of ‘Born in the U.S.A.’ things got a little tense. There were a lot of pieces to the puzzle and the direction was not very clear for everyone who thought they played a role in the process. As mentioned, Jon Landau and Bruce Springsteen were temporarily at odds. The E Street Band were at the mercy of Bruce’s beckoning. Van Zandt had his heart set on his own solo career which yielded his much-heralded album, ‘Voice of America’ (see ‘I Am a Patriot’). When Van Zandt heard about the final track listing for ‘Born in the U.S.A.’ he told his friend that the album was missing the best song. He was adamant that Springsteen include ‘No Surrender’. Van Zandt felt that ‘No Surrender’ acted as a bridge between Springsteen’s early career and what he was working on in the present moment. Not releasing this track would have been a gross injustice. Bruce listened.

The question related to ‘No Surrender’ was how to present it to his devoted audience.

It was a song I was uncomfortable with. You don’t hold out and triumph all the time in life. You compromise, you suffer defeat; you slip into life’s gray areas.”

As Bruce later stated before a Toronto audience.

This is a song about life when you find someone to share it with.”

 One thing that you will note on the album credits is that Van Zandt did not play on the album track that harkens back to the rock and roll style of the early ’60s. Little Steven knew his role. He was Bruce’s confidante and his opinion mattered. This is how this deeply personal track managed to make its way onto ‘Born in the U.S.A.’

Well, we busted out of class
Had to get away from those fools
We learned more from a three-minute record, baby
Than we ever learned in school
Tonight I hear the neighborhood drummer sound
I can feel my heart begin to pound
You say you’re tired and you just want to close your eyes
And follow your dreams down

Well we made a promise we swore we’d always remember
No retreat, baby, no surrender
Like soldiers in the winter’s night with a vow to defend
No retreat, baby, no surrender

Well, now young faces grow sad and old
And hearts of fire grow cold
We swore blood brothers against the wind
I’m ready to grow young again
And hear your sister’s voice calling us home
Across the open yards
Well maybe we’ll cut someplace of our own
With these drums and these guitars

Well we made a promise we swore we’d always remember
No retreat, baby, no surrender
Like soldiers in the winter’s night with a vow to defend
No retreat, baby, no surrender

Now on the street tonight the lights grow dim
The walls of my room are closing in
There’s a war outside still raging
You say it ain’t ours anymore to win
I want to sleep beneath
Peaceful skies in my lover’s bed
With a wide open country in my eyes
And these romantic dreams in my head

Well we made a promise we swore we’d always remember
No retreat, baby, no surrender
Like soldiers in the winter’s night with a vow to defend
No retreat, baby, no surrender”

Let’s enjoy a run of quality covers of ‘No Surrender’.

We begin with Bruce Springsteen and his friend Eddie Vedder. This is from twenty years ago. Listen to the New Jersey crowd sing along. Yet another magical Bruce Springsteen moment.

Here is a fun offering from the popular Boston band, Dropkick Murphys who have frequently professed their admiration for Bruce Springsteen. One of their biggest thrills was when The Boss joined them on stage.

Back in 2012, Joel Plaskett dropped by the Q107 Toronto studios to record a cover of one of his favourite Bruce Springsteen songs.

More recently, here is Jake Thistle from 2020. Ted Tocks Covers has shared his work on several occasions, most often with Tom Petty and the Heartbreakers tributes. Enjoy!

To summarize, in this writer’s opinion, ‘No Surrender’ is the tie that binds the entire ‘Born in the U.S.A.’ album. It is so important. Essential Bruce Springsteen, and in its naked acoustic form, there are few offerings that reflect Bruce Springsteen’s mindset as honestly.

Now on the street tonight the lights grow dim
The walls of my room are closing in
There’s a war outside still raging
You say it ain’t ours anymore to win
I want to sleep beneath
Peaceful skies in my lover’s bed
With a wide open country in my eyes
And these romantic dreams in my head”

Bruce has always had a way of sharing his philosophy in rhyming couplets. It’s a gift he has shared with us all.

To close out today’s feature, enjoy this version where Bruce shares the stage with Steven Van Zandt and the 2013 version of the E Street Band.

 They made a promise.

Over fifty years later they still both remember.

Indifference – I won’t change direction, but I might change my mind. #MusicisLife #TedTocksCovers #PearlJam #EddieVedder #BenHarper #AllisonCrowe #Talea #BlackCircle

How much difference can we make?

This question is important and the answer is difficult to quantify. Coming at it another way, the best way to take a positive step is to make a vow not to become indifferent. For the purposes of this post, indifference can be defined as;

The quality of not caring about or being interested in something or someone.”

Indifference – Definition

Today’s feature is the contemplative Pearl Jam song ‘Indifferent’ as Ted Tocks Covers raises a glass in honour of Eddie Vedder’s birthday.

Let’s look at ‘Indifference’ through the quiet contemplation of Eddie Vedder’s writing and then let it unfold into a slightly broader sociological perspective.

From a casual observer’s standpoint, the fact Eddie Vedder wrote these lyrics in his late 20s indicates a clear view of his maturity as a lyricist and social philosopher. Whether this is a way he wants to be seen is a matter of some debate, but the fact his introspective qualities shone through in such a strong way on ‘Ten’ and then again on 1993’s ‘Vs’ indicated that he and Pearl Jam were going to be a musical force.

Looking back, the ascent from struggling musicians to stardom did not come easily, and the transition took a toll on each member. Aspects of this personal evolution emerge in ‘Indifference’. Here is bassist Jeff Ament recalling the mood in the spring of 1993.

Recording Vs., there was a lot more pressure on Ed. The whole follow-up. I thought we were playing so well as a band that it would take care of itself … He was having a hard time finishing up the songs; the pressure, and not being comfortable being in such a nice place.”

Jeff Ament

Remarkably, Vedder was more or less homeless. He opted to sleep in his truck or whenever possible at the studio, in the seclusion of the sauna. His bandmates aimed to make things as comfortable as possible for their voice, because they understood to some degree what was at stake.

Here, Ament continues;

Toward the end it got fairly intense. (We) tried to make it as uncomfortable for [Vedder] as we could. Eventually the band was able to get back on track as we worked together to get in the space of his songs”.

Jeff Ament

By the end of May ‘Vs’ was complete and in retrospect, Vedder said;

 The second record, that was the one I enjoyed making the least … I just didn’t feel comfortable in the place we were at because it was very comfortable. I didn’t like that at all.”

Eddie Vedder

‘Indifference’ was the closing track on ‘Vs’ and the awkward dance between the discomfort of fame, the pressure to produce, and being perceived as an up-and-coming voice of a generation manifested itself in a conflicting way. Nearly thirty years later ‘Indifference’ harkens back to this time, but because of its pure philosophical strength the message becomes transportable. In the Allan Jones biography ‘Pearl Jam – The Illustrated Story’ Eddie Vedder opened up a little about ‘Indifference’ by stating that it is a personal challenge to;

…do something to make some other people’s lives better than they are, even if it means going through hell.”

Eddie Vedder

Here is the astounding result.

I will light the match this morning, so I won’t be alone
Watch as she lies silent, for soon light will be gone
Oh I will stand arms outstretched, pretend I’m free to roam
Oh I will make my way, through, one more day in…hell

How much difference does it make
How much difference does it make…

I will hold the candle, till it burns up my arm
I’ll keep takin’ punches, until their will grows tired
Oh I will stare the sun down, until my eyes go blind
Hey I won’t change direction, and I won’t change my mind

how much difference does it make
how much difference does it make..
how much difference…

I’ll swallow poison, until I grow immune
I will scream my lungs out till it fills this room

How much difference
How much difference
How much difference does it make
How much difference does it make…”

Eddie Vedder

Through the years Eddie Vedder and Pearl Jam have walked the walk. In ‘Indifference’ the line ‘how much difference does it make”? is repeated. Somehow, the answer is both a lot, and never enough, at the same time. If this doesn’t illustrate the conundrum in suitable detail, perhaps knowing that retreating to apathy is definitely intolerable.

In other words, never become ‘Indifferent’.

Here is just one example of the words Pearl Jam has shared during times that a unifying voice was essential. This is from June of 2020, following the murder of George Floyd by four Minneapolis police officers.

While we continue to dig in, we do not want to contribute to white voices overtaking the narrative that the Black community is sharing. It is the responsibility of each of us to listen and educate ourselves on how to be better humans sharing this planet.”

Pearl Jam

We are being asked to be better. In order to be better, we need to do better.

This quote resides as just one example of how we are being asked to take a deep look into ourselves and not be indifferent to the suffering of others.

Let’s enjoy a couple of live versions of ‘Indifference’ where the galvanizing spirit of ‘Indifference’ becomes clear. This is live from Bologna, Italy in 2006. The song may never have sounded better.

Closer to home, and quite recently, check out this moment from Hamilton, Ontario earlier this year. Pearl Jam and the audience become one. Music, once again becomes a tool for unity.

As I watched, I noted that Stone Gossard was wearing a mask. Interesting, I thought. No doubt, he was sick, but not to the point he was unable to perform. In order to protect his band-mates he opted to wear the mask. The show must go on. Cool and respectful. Responsible. Caring.

I wondered to myself if some moronic anti-masker would comment. I was not disappointed.

All hail Jeff…

Does Stone always wear a mask now? WTF is he doing!?”

Jeff – Anti-masker

I will defer to the words of Martin Luther King Jr.

Nothing in all the world is more dangerous than sincere ignorance and conscientious stupidity.”

Martin Luther King Jr.

This is what we are up against folks.

I suspect ol’ Jeff is a big Pearl Jam fan. Sadly, he is too obtuse to realize that Eddie Vedder is singing ‘Indifference’ AT him.

Eddie Vedder has never been one to avoid sharing his thoughts when it comes to political issues of the day. This is from a 2000 Ben Harper concert at Madison Square Garden in New York City. Their fun banter speaks to the political quagmire that existed in 2000 and the election that paved the way to eight years of George Bush Jr.

Warning: It only got worse.

Moving on to a few nice cover versions, check out this fabulous version by Allison Crowe. Her vocals are amazing and the bold piano and drum beat add a tension. This is so powerful. My vote for best cover, but by all means listen to the other versions and decide for yourself.

Now, enjoy this acoustic guitar rendition by Talea. She brings out the beauty of the song and the quiet contemplation of the lyrics.

I was also drawn to the introspective quality of this cover by Black Circle. The respect for Pearl Jam shines through in both the musicianship and in the way they deliver the message. This is what cover versions are all about.

For the second Ted Tocks feature in a row, a message relating to speaking out against injustice has been shared. The underlying theme is the fact that apathy is intolerable. Too often, I hear people say they can’t be bothered to follow the news because it is too exhausting, or upsetting. The suggestion that they never know what to believe, or are unable to determine whether the source is trustworthy comes up often.

Truth be told, in this day and age, information has never been more available, and distilling it requires only the slightest effort. Yes, it will take some time, and on occasion it will result in some sources and opinions to be dismissed, but in our mission to become educated and informed the energy put forth will only make us better.

The people who claim to be too tired, or can’t be bothered to learn more are playing right into the hands of those who are trying to jam their dubious agenda through. In fact, they are counting on your complacency. Every time I hear people say this I want to scream. Like Eddie Vedder said;

I want to scream my lungs out until it fills this room.

Having a nice house, two cars, a few lavish vacations a year and an ever-expanding financial portfolio may be good for you, but there is a whole lot more going on out there, and the Conservative agenda of only being concerned about something if it directly impacts you, does not serve to make the world a better place.

This story has played out before.

First they came for the Socialists, and I did not speak out — Because I was not a Socialist.

Then they came for the Trade Unionists, and I did not speak out — Because I was not a Trade Unionist.

Then they came for the Jews, and I did not speak out — Because I was not a Jew.

Then they came for me — and there was no one left to speak for me.”

Martin Niemoller

Consider this series of quotes from three inspirational people of the 20^th century.

Once again, here is Martin Luther King Jr.

He who passively accepts evil is as much involved in it as he who helps to perpetrate it. He who accepts evil without protesting against it is really cooperating with it.”

Martin Luther King Jr.

Through his eternal wisdom, King Jr. implored his followers to be altruistic and to shun the inclination toward selfishness. When injustice rears its ugly head in one place, it only serves as one domino in an endless stream of atrocities. Again, perpetrators of evil are counting on complacency, because every time one horrific act is allowed to go unchallenged, the passivity is perceived as permission.

Once again, this speaks to the Authoritarian playbook the world over.

Martin Luther King elaborated by offering this sage advice.

In the end, we will remember not the words of our enemies, but the silence of our friends.”

Martin Luther King Jr.

‘Indifference’ has been demonstrated through other means. How often have you heard someone say; “I will remain neutral on this issue” or “I can see both sides”. This stance speaks to compliance. This is ‘Indifference’. In the words of Bishop Desmond Tutu, as he was fighting Apartheid in South Africa, there is no room for neutrality.

If you are neutral in situations of injustice, you have chosen the side of the oppressor. If an elephant has its foot on the tail of a mouse and you say that you are neutral, the mouse will not appreciate your neutrality.”

Bishop Desmond Tutu

Take a stand. Tutu went on to say;

As much as the world has an instinct for evil and is a breeding ground for genocide, holocaust, slavery, racism, war, oppression, and injustice, the world has an even greater instinct for goodness, rebirth, mercy, beauty, truth, freedom and love.”

Bishop Desmond Tutu

This is where hope resides, but it must come from a place of knowledge and a willingness to take a stand and speak out against injustice and evil. It requires a commitment to never tolerate willful ignorance.

Albert Einstein famously stated;

The world is a dangerous place, not because of those who do evil, but because of those who look on and do nothing.”

Albert Einstein

We can be better. Unfortunately, we may need to stare down the sun until our eyes go blind, but when the alternative to being informed and aware is so dire, there is no choice.

Like Eddie Vedder said, nothing will change my direction. My mind will not be changed.

Given to Fly – He floated back down because he wanted to share. #MusicisLife #TedTocksCovers #PearlJam #EddieVedder #MikeMcCready #LedZeppelin #MichaelJFox #SweetLittleBand #LullabyBabyTrio #Grungeria

Every year Ted Tocks Covers features Eddie Vedder on his birthday. Vedder is one of about ten artists I make a point of honouring in this way. He just strikes me as such a cool guy. Every time I dig deeper into his library of music, I discover more interesting connections and stories of inspiration. I guess it is because he just puts himself out there. In short, he was ‘Given to Fly’.

Pearl Jam fans have a snowstorm in Seattle to thank for ‘Given to Fly’. Guitarist Mike McCready was snowed in, in his condo, so he began working on a basic repetitive riff that he admits is loosely based on ‘Going to California’ by Led Zeppelin.

It was snowing here in Seattle, which it rarely does, and so they kind of shut down all the streets and I couldn’t get my car out of the driveway. And I have a Volvo and you’d think those would be able to drive in the snow, but no, it wasn’t going anywhere, so I was kind of stuck in my condo. And I wrote that riff [for “Given to Fly”] and the “Faithfull” riff that day.”

Mike McCready

As he was working out the chord progression, McCready imagined a wave on the ocean starting out small and then getting larger and larger until it eventually breaks. Typical to the Pearl Jam writing process, he then gave the guitar track to Eddie Vedder who built on McCready’s vision. He saw things in much the same way as his songwriting partner, but he imagined it in the form of a storyboard depicting someone who was struggling. The individual decides to escape for a period in order to gather their thoughts. During a period of introspection, they have a revelation, and rather than retreating further, they choose to share their newfound wisdom. At first, they are not well received but through perseverance and passion they spread positivity to whoever chooses to listen. Some could say it is vaguely autobiographical, but according to Eddie Vedder it is a fable with a message that anyone who wishes to take the time, can grab a hold of and feel empowered. Here are his thoughts on the uplifting song.

[I imagined the song as] a 20-page cardboard (children’s) book with a line on each page and a picture to go with it. It’s a fable, that’s all. The music almost gives you this feeling of flight, and I really love singing the part at the end, which is all about rising above anybody’s comments about what you do and still giving your love away. You know? Not becoming bitter and reclusive, not condemning the whole world because of the actions of a few.”

Eddie Vedder

Here are the lyrics. As one reads and listens, they can feel the inspiration that both Mike McCready and Eddie Vedder drew from in their respective vision. Whether it be a wave on the ocean or a story book of profound affirmations, the power of possibility emerges.

He could’ve tuned in, tuned in
But he tuned out
A bad time, nothing could save him
Alone in a corridor, waiting, locked out
He got up outta there, ran for hundreds of miles
He made it to the ocean, had a smoke in a tree
The wind rose up, set him down on his knee

A wave came crashing like a fist to the jaw
Delivered him wings, “Hey, look at me now”
Arms wide open with the sea as his floor
Oh, power, oh

He’s flying
Whole
High, wide, oh

He floated back down ’cause he wanted to share
His key to the locks on the chains he saw everywhere
But first he was stripped, and then he was stabbed
By faceless men, well, fuckers
He still stands

And he still gives his love, he just gives it away
The love he receives is the love that is saved
And sometimes is seen a strange spot in the sky
A human being that was given to fly

High, flying
Oh, oh
High, flying
Oh, oh
He’s flying
Oh, high
Oh, oh, oh, oh

Eddie Vedder

‘Given to Fly’ was released to radio as a single almost exactly 24 years ago, on December 22, 1997. The official single release occurred in early January before Pearl Jam’s fifth album ‘Yield’ hit the streets in February of 1998. It became a hit on both the mainstream and modern rock charts. Here is a fantastic summation of the song from an ‘AllMusic’ review.

 “Given to Fly” is “a soaring epic that goes a long way in conveying Yield’s majestic splendor. Front man Eddie Vedder narrates the tale of a misunderstood, near-Messianic youth in front of hushed verses that explode into stratospheric choruses.”

AllMusic

Soon after its release ‘Given to Fly’ was criticized in some circles for its structural similarity to ‘Going to California’ by Led Zeppelin. Here is one veiled compliment from Tom Lanham of Entertainment Weekly.

This latest PJ perambulator not only apes vintage Page/Plant latticework but also blatantly nicks the entire melody line from Led Zeppelin’s delicate ‘Going to California’ …Still, the song builds into such an emotional crescendo that it almost shakes its historical shackles. Almost.”

Tom Lanham

 Here is ‘Going to California’ for good measure.

Mike McCready offers no apology. He doubles down on the fact the Jimmy Page exists as a major inspiration.

It’s probably some sort of rip off of it I’m sure…Whether it’s conscious or unconscious, but that was definitely one of the songs I was listening to for sure. Zeppelin was definitely an influence on that.”

Mike McCready

Let’s not forget that Led Zeppelin are famous for their interpretations of some of the biggest blues artists that came before them. The world of music is an evolution and what we see here are continuing chapters.

Speaking of the chapters in a story, here is a good one related to a big-name fan. After Pearl Jam was inducted into the Rock and Roll Hall of Fame by David Letterman they performed ‘Given to Fly’ as part of their set. Watch as Eddie Vedder takes a moment to pay tribute to a fan of the band…Michael J. Fox, who is on record as saying that the music of Pearl Jam has been therapeutic for him in his ongoing battle with Parkinson’s disease. A special moment, and you can feel the emotion from both the sender and the recipient.

I was reminded of this when I heard this interview. This is Tom Power on Q, interviewing Michael J. Fox after he released his book ‘No Time Like the Future: An Optimist Considers His Own Mortality’.

https://www.cbc.ca/listen/cbc-podcasts/1025-the-q-interview

In this interview Michael J. Fox is incredibly open about his challenges. It zeroes in on the difficult time he endured during 2018 as the ravages of Parkinson’s went to another level. He manages to blend an element of humour into his candid portrayal with lines like this.

I was at a resort in Turks and Caicos, and I happened to run into Keith Richards, and I realized that Keith Richards looked better than I felt.”

Michael J. Fox

While this strikes one as funny, it lays the groundwork for the interview. Essentially, Michael J. Fox spent a great portion of 2018 learning how to walk again after major spine surgery. While in recovery and therapy for that, he fell and broke his arm. The issues began to compound, and he was faced with several issues that challenged his typically optimistic approach.

As Tom Power captures through the interview process, this is a story of a resilience, but also the story of a man who questions his eternal optimism. But, in his refreshingly honesty candor, Michael J. Fox reveals a degree of truth. Between carefully timed public appearance that make inspiring video and sound clips portraying wonderful moments of personal empowerment, there are struggles. This interview unveils that reality in a startling way.

If optimism is my faith, I fear I am losing my religion.”

Michael J. Fox

And somehow through it all he manages to come through as a guiding light, because at the root of his personality is a positive person.

I share this, because it captures the essence of what Mike McCready and Eddie Vedder were attempting to get across to their audience almost a quarter century ago. The true test of great music is in its ability to stand the test of time both in its quality of sound and in its message. In a year where we are celebrating 50 years of Led Zeppelin IV’s brilliance, we are also paying homage to a song that was inspired by its brilliance. This is why music matters. Because, when the message contained within a song truly resonates with an individual, we are all ‘Given to Fly’.

While searching for versions of ‘Given to Fly’ I was overwhelmed by the many options that presented Pearl Jam live. The song literally soars in the live space.

I discovered two instrumental versions that portray the song as baby lullabies. Here is Sweet Little Band from 2010.

This is the Lullaby Baby Trio from 2020.

Before I sign off, enjoy this cover by a band called Grungeria. A solid version. They stay true to the music and the singer nails Eddie Vedder’s vocals. If you love bands of the grunge era, you will enjoy this band’s cover versions of several artists.

When it comes to Eddie Vedder Ted Tocks Covers has a confession to make. Back in the early ‘90s when Pearl Jam burst onto the music scene at the forefront of the grunge movement, I looked upon them with a contemptible wave of the hand. I thought they and the rest of the acts that emerged would be a flash in the pan and I barely gave them a second look. Part of the reason for my dismissive approach was the fact that I was getting married and over the next decade I became more focused on raising a family than pursuing music interests. I wasn’t able to devote the time to look deeper. On occasion, I raised an eyebrow when I kept seeing Eddie Vedder and/or Pearl Jam appear on stage with some of my favourite acts. Jamming and recording with Neil Young who they affectionately called Uncle Neil. Covering The Who and The Beatle, who they frequently list among  their biggest influences. Then there were appearances on stage with Robert Plant and Tom Petty and performing a cover of Warren Zevon’s ‘Keep Me in Your Heart’ on David Letterman. Eddie Vedder and Pearl Jam were everywhere, and they received endorsements from every artist I grew up listening to. Maybe there is something to this? I should explore this Eddie Vedder character? Just maybe, this Pearl Jam really does have some substance. It was a combination of three circumstances that brought me to the right side of this discovery. I believe it was the spring of 1999 when my friend Rich invited Heather and I to a book launch hosted by the one and only Ray Manzarek, the legendary keyboard player for the Doors. I was less than 20 feet away from the man when he told the story of the Doors reunion at their Rock and Roll Hall of Fame induction gig. He relayed the story of how playing behind Eddie Vedder as their vocalist reinvigorated his desire to perform live again. You could see the sparkle in his eye when he told the story, smiling the whole time…Man! What a cool guy. This gave me some more pause for thought. Over the next couple of years, my oldest son Sebastian began to delve into his own musical world and sure enough, who should emerge but Pearl Jam. Man! Eddie Vedder is not going away any time soon. The final piece of the puzzle was when Sebastian shared the stark brilliance of the ‘Into the Wild’ soundtrack. It was here that I became hooked. I couldn’t stop listening to this album. It was on a continuous loop. I was late to the party, but I got there and like Joe Walsh said, “It’s hard to leave when you can’t find the door.” The truth is, I am not even looking for the door because figuratively, if Eddie Vedder is in the room, I want to stay and hear what he has got to say.

So, that is my brief Eddie Vedder story. Through his lyrics, and the delivery, by virtue of his charisma and the prowess of his Pearl Jam brethren, he literally brings music alive and takes the listener to a better place.

Here is a list of Ted Tocks Covers features that have included Eddie Vedder and Pearl Jam.

Masters of War

You’ve Got to Hide Your Love Away

‘I’ve Got a Feeling’

Fortunate Son

Thank You

Gimme Some Truth

Baba O’Riley

I’m Waiting for the Man

The Real Me

Whip It

Even Flow

Black

Don’t Dream It’s Over

Just Breathe

 I Am Mine

Big Hard Sun

Society

These days, we all need to be able to go to a better place on occasion. So today I raise a glass to Eddie Vedder for being the guide.

Black – Sheets of empty canvas. #MusicisLife #TedTocksCovers #EddieVedder #StoneGossard #PearlJam #ToniCornell

For almost three years Ted Tocks Covers has aimed to illustrate the point that music unites people. There is no doubt that the songs artists create speak to their audience on a certain level, but long before these songs hit the listeners’ ears there is a connection that takes place in the studio that makes the ultimate magic happen. The story of Pearl Jam begins with a cosmic union that would make even the most cynical among us, believe in fate. It is how a series of circumstances and a network of friends led to a handful of demos being delivered to the right person. The result was the formation of one of the most prolific and beloved bands of the last thirty years. Here is the brief story of Pearl Jam’s formation upon the soul revealing canvas of the band’s classic song ‘Black’.

To unveil the earliest roots of Pearl Jam, you need to go back to a Seattle area band called Green River. The core of this band included bassist Jeff Ament and guitarist Stone Gossard. After enjoying moderate regional success, Green River disbanded in 1987. Not to be deterred, the pair formed Malfunkshun later that year with a vocalist named Andrew Wood. Out of that core, Mother Love Bone was created. They recorded and toured through mid 1990, but tragically, Andrew Wood died of a heroin overdose in July of that year. Ament and Gossard were shattered by the death of their friend and musical collaborator. This tragedy could have taken them in any direction. Fortunately, they opted to turn their efforts to a combination of resolve and creativity. Stone Gossard began writing music and creating demos with a harder edge. Through this total immersion he kept a keen eye out for local talent to fulfill his goal of delivering the music to a wider audience. It was around this time that he encountered another Seattle guitarist named Mike McCready, whose band Shadow had just broken up. The pair began jamming on some of Gossard’s demos and at the urging of the younger McCready, Gossard summoned Jeff Ament back into the fold. This early collaboration resulted in a five song demo that was created with a goal of attracting a singer and a drummer. One of the recipients of the demo was former Red Hot Chili Peppers drummer Jack Irons. Irons passed on joining the band, but he knew a guy…

Many miles down the Pacific coast a relatively shy, but endlessly passionate and focused surfer by the name of Eddie Vedder was a singer for a San Diego band named Bad Radio. He was working part time at a gas station, but he had his eye on something bigger. When Jack Irons handed him a copy of the demo labeled ‘Stone Gossard Tapes ‘91’ he was captivated by the presentation. After listening to the songs Eddie Vedder went to where everything made the most sense to him…the ocean. It was while surfing that the legendary vocalist summoned the inspiration for lyrics to accompany three of the songs. Pearl Jam fans are well aware that they included the origins of ‘Alive’, ‘Once’ and ‘Footsteps’. For Eddie Vedder this trio was notated in a mini opera entitled ‘Momma-Son’. It was all very autobiographical.

Once Vedder put his lyrics down on the demo he sent them back to Jeff Ament. He and the bassist also began a series of conversations by phone and once Ament heard the demos he immediately contacted Gossard and McCready with a simple statement…”You have got to hear this.” The trio were impressed enough to fly Eddie Vedder up to Seattle for an audition. Even a year later Eddie Vedder referred to his introduction to the group as a long – distance love affair.

My relationship with the band began as a love affair on the phone with Jeff.”

Eddie Vedder

By the time he arrived Vedder had two more songs to add. One of them was ‘Black’. Here is the original demo from “Stone Gossard Tapes ‘91’ known as ‘E’ Ballad’

…and then with Eddie Vedder’s lyrics.

One week after his arrival Eddie had joined the band. To round out the group they added drummer Dave Krusen and took on the name Mookie Blaylock, which was a tribute to a basketball player who at the time was playing for the New Jersey Nets. Their first gig was opening for fellow Seattle band, Alice in Chains in October of 1990. This connection led to them being Alice in Chains opening act on their 1991 ‘Facelift’ tour. Mookie Blaylock signed with Epic records in 1991 and ultimately changed their name to Pearl Jam. By May of 1991 Dave Krusen left the band in order to go to rehab. He was replaced by Matt Chamberlain who had been a part of Edie Brickell and the New Bohemians. This incarnation of the band was short-lived as Chamberlain opted to join the Saturday Night Live band. Before leaving Chamberlain recommended Texas based drummer Dave Abbruzzese as his replacement. Abbruzzese remained with the band until 1995 when he was replaced by Jack Irons. The former RHCP drummer remained until 1998 when he was replaced by Matt Cameron who had been the drummer for Seattle-based rock band Soundgarden since 1986. Cameron appeared on every Soundgarden studio album until they broke up in 1997. In 1998, Cameron was invited to join Pearl Jam’s U.S ‘Yield’ tour. Shortly thereafter he became a permanent member of the band. In 2010, Cameron became a simultaneous member of Pearl Jam and the reformed Soundgarden. He remained with Soundgarden until they disbanded in 2017, after the death of its lead singer, Chris Cornell.  

Back to the early days…The first incarnation of Pearl Jam entered Seattle’s London Bridge Studios in March of 1991. The resulting recordings became the celebrated debut album ‘Ten’ which was a tribute to the number that their original namesake Mookie Blaylock wore. ‘Ten’ was released in August of 1991. The eleven song offering was full of dark, yet endlessly expressive songs that became longstanding Pearl Jam anthems. Not only that, many songs from ‘Ten’ became the voice of a generation of music fans and much to the chagrin of the band, they became forever connected to the term ‘Grunge’ along with Nirvana, Alice in Chains, and Soundgarden, among others.

As a result of endless touring ‘Ten’ became a massive hit. It was only prevented from hitting #1 by Billy Ray Cyrus and his ‘Achy Breaky Heart’ release.

From here, we will revert our attention back to ‘Black’ again. I choose ‘Black’ because it resides as the perfect example of Pearl Jam as a cohesive recording entity (revolving drummers aside), and indicative of their uncompromising integrity right from their earliest days.

Much of the song’s success is due to the fact it lays out the talent of Pearl Jam as a collective unit. This is no more apparent than the guitar track laid down by Mike McCready who shines throughout the debut album. Notice how he gives credit to the vision of Stone Gossard, and one of his major influences in this quote.

That’s more of a Stevie Ray Vaughan rip-off, with me playing little flowing things. I was way into that trip—I still am, actually, but it was probably more obvious back then. I really thought the song was beautiful. Stone wrote it and he just let me do what I wanted.”

Mike McCready

From day one ‘Black’ served as a song that energized the band while they were exploring their possibilities as a group.

There are certain songs that come from emotion. It’s got nothing to do with melody or timing or even words; it has to do with the emotion behind the song. You can’t put out 50 percent. You have to sing them from a feeling. Like ‘Alive’ and ‘Jeremy’ to this day – and ‘Black.’ Those songs, they tear me up.”

Eddie Vedder

Speaking to the point of integrity, as the band was beginning to realize the impact of ‘Ten’ and the potential of its material to continue to penetrate a receptive market, they needed to consider options for single releases to support the album. When the subject of ‘Black’ came up Eddie Vedder firmly put his foot down and said no. It was too personal. In Eddie Vedder’s words, by way  of a 1993 interview with acclaimed Rolling Stone writer Cameron Crowe:

Where do we draw the line? The line was drawn at ‘Black’. Eddie Vedder refused to turn the song into a video, wouldn’t listen to the corporate coaching that told him the track was, as Vedder puts it, “bigger than ‘Jeremy’, bigger than you or me.” Vedder held firm, and the band backed him up. “Some songs,” he says, “just aren’t meant to be played between Hit No. 2 and Hit No. 3. You start doing those things, you’ll crush it. That’s not why we wrote songs. We didn’t write to make hits. But those fragile songs get crushed by the business. I don’t want to be a part of it. I don’t think the band wants to be part of it.”

Eddie Vedder/Cameron Crowe – Rolling Stone Interview

Fittingly, ‘Black’ became massive on its own. There are a few reasons for this. The first is the clear reality that Eddie Vedder has an innate way of relating to his audience. Pearl Jam listeners immediately gravitated to the angst presented in his songs and ‘Black’ just happened to be one of the best. People could relate. Eddie Vedder was of two minds on this one. He was troubled by the fact that so many people identified with his dark lyrics, but he also understood because he could reconcile this connection to how he looked up to one of his songwriting heroes.

I was surprised and a little upset that so many people did relate. Everyone’s fucked up. Actually, now I understand those religious channels more. Everybody needs something. There should be no messiahs in music. The music itself, the music, I don’t mind worshipping that. I’ve done that. And with that comes a little bit of admiration for the people who make it – or awe or whatever – but I never asked for nose hair from Pete Townshend.”

Eddie Vedder

The song really took off as a result of the acclaimed MTV acoustic performance known as ‘Unplugged’ which was the in thing at the time for a range of artists. Tearing songs down to their core resonated with fans and the result was incredibly honest in the case of ‘Black’.

Again, from the Cameron Crowe interview:

We belong . . . together . . . together,” It was simple, a guy sitting on a stool, ripping his heart out, drowning emotionally, right there in front of you. After ‘Unplugged’, letters to the band’s Ten Club almost doubled, many were about “Black,” and they began in an eerily similar fashion: “I was recently considering suicide, and then I heard your music . . .”

Eddie Vedder/Cameron Crowe – Rolling Stone Interview

For Eddie Vedder, this became a dichotomy of both personal triumph and painful derision as he came to terms with the success. The commercialization which they were trying to avoid came anyway. It was never so evident as this experience that occurred shortly after ‘Ten’ had exploded. Vedder was in a moment of deep personal contemplation after the loss of a friend. He was in an isolated area when he heard a group of people singing.

They were singing “Black,” the fragile song that to Vedder had come to symbolize the over commercialization of the band. He’d fought to keep it from getting overplayed, didn’t want a video made of the song. Vedder hiked out of the bushes to ask the surprised hikers not to sing the song. Months later, he still remembers their odd and concerned looks as they faced the angst-filled author of the song.”

Eddie Vedder/Cameron Crowe – Rolling Stone Interview

It is clear that in many ways the ability of Eddie Vedder, to translate his personal experience to his delivery is both a blessing and a curse.

…it’s torture. Which is why it’s fucked up for me. Why I should probably learn how to sing another way. It would be easier. It’s . . . it’s too much.”

Eddie Vedder

It’s also a gift to the fans of Pearl Jam. The truth is, Eddie Vedder and the band would never give less than 100%, nor would their fans expect anything less. Through the years that has been what they have offered. In summary, Vedder has stated that music and songwriting has been a release that has channeled so much of his personal angst into his creativity.

I’m just glad I became a songwriter.”

Eddie Vedder

He adds…

Music is an incredibly powerful medium to deliver a story by. But the best thing is, you have to have volume. You’re supposed to play it loud. I would do anything to be around music. You don’t even have to pay me.”

Eddie Vedder

And this has been my contention through three years of Ted Tocks Covers. For this moment in time I take solace in knowing that I am on the same page as Eddie Vedder as he celebrates his 56^th birthday.

Earlier in this post you will recall that Pearl Jam was lumped in with a handful of bands that came to define the ‘Grunge’ movement. One of those acts was Soundgarden. This act was led by front man Chris Cornell who was a good friend of Mother Love Bone singer, Andrew Wood.  Members of Pearl Jam and Soundgarden were long- time collaborators on side projects such as Temple of the Dog which resided as a musical tribute to Andrew Wood. The closeness of this friendship is profound. In Eddie Vedder’s words:

I had no idea how he would affect my life and my views on music and my views on friendship and what a big impact he would have. These guys [the other members of Pearl Jam] know him much longer than me and his impact is profound.”

Eddie Vedder

Outside of Pearl Jam, one of the first friendships Eddie Vedder made upon his arrival in Seattle was with Chris Cornell.

The tragic death of Chris Cornell was a huge loss to not only the music industry but his vast musical family. There are no words to convey the profound impact. Those attempting to make sense of it all were definitely forced to confront the stark reality of mental health issues in today’s society. There is no solace here, but it points to a slow transition to a deeper sense of compassion and empathy.

As I type, I am reminded of the massive influence Cornell had on his daughter Toni.

Therefore, to close out today’s post I give you this stunning cover of ‘Black’ by Toni Cornell.

The words are right there at the end of the video…

This song is dedicated to my Dad.”

Toni Cornell

‘Black’ is beautiful.

Be there for somebody today.

I am Mine – There is no need to hide. We are safe tonight. #MusicisLife #TedTocksCovers – #PearlJam #EddieVedder #BlackCircle #BronsonArroyo #ManintheCorner #NewIndians #JeffAment

This song is about what’s inside you. You own it, and you have the freedom for it to come out. It’s allowed to come out.”

Eddie Vedder

‘I am Mine’ by Pearl Jam was released just over eighteen years ago and fortunately its meaning will never get left behind. It stands as one of many songs that is as meaningful today as the day it was released.

To fans of Eddie Vedder, it is no secret that he has a special gift in his ability to relate to his audience. He comes across as more of a friend than a rock star, but as a front man for Pearl Jam and a solo artist he is clearly in the upper echelon. Today’s feature will briefly profile this important song and then relate some personal reflections. Just a few things I need to get out, because ‘I am Mine’ and fortunately we still have the freedom to express our thoughts. As Eddie said, they are ‘allowed to come out.’

Typical of so many Pearl Jam songs ‘I am Mine’ checks all the boxes on their list of prerequisites. According to drummer Matt Cameron;

It seems like it has all the elements this band is known for: strong lyrics, strong hook, and a good sense of melody. It wasn’t a really tough decision to have that be the starting point for the record.”

Matt Cameron

The album Cameron is referring to is 2002’s ‘Riot Act’. It should be known that at the time of writing, Eddie Vedder was not in a particularly good place. Fortunately; like for many, writing served as a form of personal therapy. In Vedder’s own words the song was written to;

…reassure myself that this is going to be all right.”

Eddie Vedder

This is where the inspiration for ‘I am Mine” becomes even more important. On June 30, 2000, Pearl Jam was a featured act at the Roskilde Festival in Denmark. The day of the performance was marred by heavy rainfall, and the grounds that had been churned up by the massive crowds, turned into a muddy pool in several areas. The front of the stage was particularly dangerous as a result. When the audience surged to this area while Pearl Jam was performing, several fans fell and could not immediately recover. Horrifically, they suffocated before the helpless crowd or security could get to them. Nine people were killed, and 26 others were hospitalized. Pearl Jam was notified during their performance and urged the fans to step back and to cease the crowd surfing that only added to the problem. Unfortunately, it was too late. For Pearl Jam, the scars lingered. The tragic result inspired a song called ‘Love Boat Captain’. In this lyric, Vedder states:

Lost nine friends we’ll never know
Two years ago today”

Eddie Vedder – Love Boat Captain

If you listen to the whole song, it is clear that it is not only a reflection on Roskilde, but the fragility of life and relationships as time passes. For Pearl Jam, as they have performed ‘Love Boat Captain’ through the years Eddie has always taken the time to adjust the number of years as he sings the lyric. He will forever pay homage to those fans.

Back to ‘I am Mine’; Eddie Vedder wrote this personal reflection in a Virginia Beach hotel room just before the first Pearl Jam performance after the Roskilde tragedy. Here are the lyrics:

The selfish, they’re all standing in line
Faithing and hoping to buy themselves time
Me, I figure as each breath goes by
I only own my mind

The north is to south what the clock is to time
There’s east and there’s west and there’s everywhere life
I know I was born and I know that I’ll die
The in-between is mine
I am mine

And the feeling, it gets left behind
All the innocence lost at one time
Significant behind the eyes
There’s no need to hide
We’re safe tonight

The ocean is full ’cause everyone’s crying
The full moon is looking for friends at high tide
The sorrow grows bigger when the sorrow’s denied
I only know my mind
I am mine

And the meaning, it gets left behind
All the innocence lost at one time
Significant, behind the eyes
There’s no need to hide
We’re safe tonight

And the feelings that get left behind
All the innocence broken with lies
Significance, between the lines
We may need to hide

And the meanings that get left behind
All the innocence lost at one time
We’re all different behind the eyes
There’s no need to hide, yeah.”

Eddie Vedder – I am Mine

When I write Ted Tocks I try to get in a zone. Typically, I write early in the morning every weekend, while the house is quiet. Just me and my cat Knucklehead, and a cup of coffee. It gives me time to think and for the most part channel my feelings toward the piece I am featuring. Anything less would never do the song I am profiling justice. I just figure, if I am going to do this, I should do it to the best of my ability. It is an ongoing exercise borne out of a love of music and the art so many of these performers have blessed us with through the years. As I have said before, Ted Tocks Covers, for me is therapeutic because it often allows me to pour out some of my own personal feelings. Like Eddie Vedder said;

This song’s about personal safety, and the feeling of being secure, and even free.”

Eddie Vedder

Before I share today’s cover version I will begin with a strong acoustic performance by Eddie Vedder, because it captures the essence of the lyrical content. Listen to his speech before he plays the song and then pay attention to the passion. This defines Eddie Vedder.

For today’s cover versions I have chosen three and they are offered for reasons that go beyond big names in music. They speak more to day to day life.

Here is a band called Black Circle doing a strong acoustic cover. I just like the atmosphere in this performance. It is a clear homage to an obvious influence.

While researching this post I learned of a unique friendship between former Major League Baseball pitcher Bronson Arroyo and Pearl Jam. Arroyo appeared on a MLB show called ‘Intentional Talk’ where he spoke of his love of music and how learning to play guitar in the late 1990s and early 2000s helped him to focus in between starts. One of the songs he cited in interviews was ‘I am Mine’. I searched all over to find him playing today’s feature but could not find it. What I did find was even better. Check this out. What a thrill this must have been,

Here is the story behind this special moment.

Bronson Arroyo: Why Playing With Pearl Jam At Fenway Park Was One Of The Greatest Nights Of My Life

This story speaks to me because over the past few months Sebastian and I spent a fair bit of time watching baseball. During COVID-19, the baseball season was fraught with challenges and I had turned a bit of a blind eye to the sport for most of the past 25 years, but Sebastian got me back into it. As the shortened regular season wound down, we settled in for several games and by playoff time it became a must watch. When the World Series rolled around, every game was front and centre on the day’s agenda. It was enjoyable. It took me back many years to the sport I grew up loving. The game has really changed, but the talent on display was through the roof. Good times, and great memories.

The second cover is from a rather unlikely source. I must have watched twenty cover versions of “I am Mine’ before arriving at this one. It just struck me in the moment. It is a COVID-19 project. The performer who posts under the name ‘Man in the Corner’ spoke to me in this Youtube post. Listen…he is honest, and he is speaking to his vulnerability during a difficult time, living in self isolation in his native New Delhi, India. It comes as part of a series of videos called ‘Isolation Days’. The performance is strong, but it’s his genuine presentation that resonates with me, and hopefully, you. He is everyone, everywhere (with a conscience) right now. This makes this video and song even more important.

I know I was born, and I know that I’ll die, the in-between is mine.”

Eddie Vedder – I am Mine

For a fun cover, here is Pearl Jam bassist Jeff Ament with New Indians. An impromptu session at Easy Street Records in Seattle.

As much as writing ‘I am Mine’ helped Eddie convey his feelings, Ted Tocks Covers does the same for me. As I have said before, when I started this blog, it was meant for me to share my love of music. I decided to put it on Facebook for a handful of people who might care to pay attention. The initial plan was to share a song a day along with a brief writeup chronicling its background story, and obviously a cover version. I managed to keep it up as a daily endeavor for the better part of two years, but then a few things happened. First, the more I got into it, the more difficult I found it was to be brief in my song profiles. It also became increasingly difficult to limit myself to just one cover. There is simply too much good music out there, and cover versions are a gold mine that speak to musical influence and the evolution of style and genre. All of this meant time became a factor. I had to make a decision, and I opted for quality over quantity. To some, that may be debatable, but I try. Essentially, I offer up two a week. They are longer and tend to offer more than one cover version most of the time. In short, they present a deeper exploration. Hopefully it is all coming across as intended. It is still a work in progress. It always will be.

The beauty of it all is, as Ted Tocks evolved. With the help of Sebastian, I turned it into a blog. Every post is hosted on the blog site, and on a daily basis I either reblog significant old posts or share new posts on the site while posting to Linked In, Twitter and Facebook. Between this assortment of venues, I have managed to create a modest following and meet many amazing people who share a love of music. It has also allowed me to stay in touch with friends and family as well as re-connect with old friends, many of whom I had lost contact with. How good is that? These days there is no way to express how important this is to me.

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Figuratively, Ted Tocks Covers serves as the intersection where music meets life. From day one my hashtag was #MusicisLife and through these connections I have been able to reinforce that belief. It means a lot to me when something I write connects to an audience. It may be through another artist’s work, but the feelings I express related to any song are deeply personal, and over the course of nearly three years I have recognized that in the best versions of Ted Tocks. Not only is it the song or love for an artist that allows me to relate to the people who read my posts, but the sharing of the personal stories specific to the song. It is at this point that not only do we pass through the intersection where music meets life, but we truly stop and have a conversation. We connect on some level. This is my next assertion, and a frequent theme in my posts. #MusicUnites.

So, from very modest beginnings Ted Tocks Covers has become something that at least ten people a day seem to look forward to…I will never take myself too seriously. I am truly humbled that my posts have been read in over fifty countries and it has opened the door to several on-line friendships which I genuinely cherish. On a handful of occasions my posts have even been liked, retweeted and commented on by the artist I have featured. That too, means a lot. All of this keeps me energized. Every weekend morning, I will settle in and continue to write, because it helps me on many levels. The fact that it is enjoyed by a few others is perhaps the best result of this little project.

On this day, I have chosen ‘I am Mine’ for a reason. It is an important day in my life. This is one of many meaningful songs on what I refer to as the soundtrack of my life. On this day I share it with a friend, because we share the day in a significant way. I have known him for thirty-five years and we share a bond. Several years ago, he was going through some personal challenges. I needed to reach out to him and let him know that I was there for him. The best way I knew how was through music, and the message contained in a series of songs. The exact details of the song list I shared escapes me, but I am pretty sure I led off with ‘I am Mine’. Why? Because he needed to know that he ‘owned his mind’ and that as each day went by, as long as he did what was best for him ‘he would be safe’ in knowing that he followed his own course. Fortunately, he is in a much better place today. He needs to know the message and the feeling remains. Much like the bond. He knows who he is.

Happy Birthday!

In truth, we all need to know this is the case. We need to be true to ourselves. We also need to be there for others when we sense there is an opportunity to help. Sometimes I fear this message is lost in today’s world, but I will never give up hope.

I will continue to share this sentiment one post at a time.

In between, ‘I only know my mind’ but as ‘each breath goes by’ I owe it to myself to be a little bit better than the day before.

The ocean is full ’cause everyone’s crying
The full moon is looking for friends at high tide
The sorrow grows bigger when the sorrow’s denied”

Eddie Vedder – I am Mine

Do something nice for someone today. It will make a difference.

Have a great day!

Just Breathe – I’m a lucky man to count on both hands the ones I love. #MusicisLife #TedTocksCovers #EddieVedder #PearlJam #WillieNelson #LukasNelson #JenniferWarnes

Yesterday, I made the case that Joe Cocker was the best ‘cover artist’ ever. Today ‘Ted Tocks’ celebrates the one and only Eddie Vedder; an artist who most certainly resides high on that list of performers. The man has an ability to relate to people on multiple levels through his music. As a result of that gift he can portray virtually any singer or act with an uncanny accuracy and unrivalled passion.

Today we celebrate Eddie Vedder’s 55^th trip around the ‘Big Hard Sun’ by featuring an original Pearl Jam song; the evocative ‘Just Breathe’.

I am sure I’m not alone in saying that this song just speaks to me. ‘Just Breathe’ was released ten years ago on Pearl Jam’s ninth studio album called ‘Backspacer’. It evolved out of the instrumental song on the ‘Into the Wild’ soundtrack called ‘Tuolumne’. Listen…

While playing the guitar piece Eddie Vedder was struck by the possibilities of the first chord and slowly the lyrics unfolded. It began with what was initially written as a bridge, but ultimately became the chorus:

Did I say that I need you?
Did I say that I want you?
What if I did and I’m a fool you see
No one knows this more than me
‘Cause I come clean.”

Eddie Vedder

In Vedder’s words it started from that simple beginning and with the encouragement of his bandmates and producer Brandon O’Brien ‘Just Breathe’ was born.

“That’s an example of letting Brendan hear things objectively and following him whatever way he wanted to take it…One of the things as you get older is that you welcome others’ input. You don’t feel like you have to prove yourself.”

Eddie Vedder

In a sense ‘Just Breathe’ represents a continuation of the ever evolving maturity of Eddie Vedder’s lyrical style. Always observant and powerfully introspective, Vedder explores themes related to personal loss and ultimately his own mortality. Rather than coming across as hopelessly melancholy, it awakens a sense of thankfulness. He is far from perfect. He has personal flaws, but through it all he has his success, his friendships and a life partner. All is right, in this particular moment.

Yes, I understand
That every life must end
As we sit alone
I know someday we must go

Yeah I’m a lucky man
To count on both hands
The ones I love
Some folks just have one
Yeah others they got none

Stay with me
Let’s just breathe

Practised on our sins
Never gonna let me win
Under everything
Just another human being

I don’t want to hurt
There’s so much in this world
To make me believe

Stay with me
All I see

Did I say that I need you?
Did I say that I want you?
What if I did and I’m a fool you see
No one knows this more than me
‘Cause I come clean

I wonder everyday
As I look upon your face
Everything you gave
And nothing you would take
Nothing you would take
Everything you gave

Did I say that I need you?
Did I say that I want you?
What if I did and I’m a fool you see
No one knows this more than me
I come clean

Nothing you would take
Everything you gave
Hold me ’till I die
Meet you on the other side

Eddie Vedder

Every time I listen to this song, I marvel at its’ beauty and the ability of songwriters to bare their soul in their compositions and relate to thousands of people in the process.

Thank you, Eddie! You are a gem.

A few years after Pearl Jam released ‘Just Breathe’ music legend Willie Nelson was working on what would be his sixtieth (you read that right) studio album. ‘Heroes’ was released in 2012 and it featured songs written by Willie and his son Lukas; a talented musician and songwriter in his own right. The first single was the marijuana advocacy anthem ‘Roll Me Up and Smoke Me When I Die’ which was released on April 20, 2012. Yes, 420 day. This was also slated to be the album title, but they became concerned that the conservative faction amongst country music fans and record sale and media outlets may reject the notion of a pro marijuana song. Insert face palm emoji here. If people don’t know what Willie Nelson stands for by now their heads are further up their ass than Mike Pence and Lindsey Graham in their daily race to tickle Donald Trump’s grossly enlarged prostate…but I digress…A month later, at Lukas Nelson’s urging ‘Just Breathe’ was released as a single, strategically on ‘Record Store Day’. The album did extremely well, hitting #4 on the Billboard Top Country Album Chart. Here is ‘Just Breathe’ which stands as an impressive duet between father and son. Very touching. Extremely well done. The harmonica is so contemplative. I love it. Pay close attention to the imagery in the video and it speaks volumes about the special relationship between Willie and Lukas.

As an added bonus here is Eddie and Lukas playing ‘Just Breathe’ at Neil Young’s Bridge School Benefit Concert in 2014. Close your eyes as you listen, and you swear you are listening to Willie. Watch right to the end and see the smile on their faces. They are completely immersed on the moment.

As I navigated additional possibilities for this post, I came across this beautiful cover by Jennifer Warnes that was released last year. It is ironic that she would come up in my search the day after I featured Joe Cocker. Warnes and Cocker collaborated on ‘Up Where We Belong’ in 1982. Through Jennifer Warnes distinct delivery the song comes through as a soliloquy from the artist. Powerful does not begin to summarize ‘Just Breathe’ and its emotional impact on the listener.

Nothing you would take
Everything you gave.”

Eddie Vedder

In so many ways…the sign of a live well lived.

Even Flow – Just one of many examples of the sociological importance of #EddieVedder and his lyrics. #MusicisLife #TedTocksCovers #PearlJam #LittleFeather

Today is a significant date for Pearl Jam fans and by extension, music history. On this day in 1990. Pearl Jam performed live for the first time at the Off Ramp in Seattle. From that day forward the band, and by virtue of being the lead singer, Eddie Vedder used his voice to get a message across. During their close to three decades of recording and live performance Pearl Jam has succeeded in that mission.

Pearl Jam released their debut album, Ten in 1992. Ten is considered to be one of the best debut albums ever. They served notice that they were a voice to be reckoned with. They brought grunge to the mainstream, but they did so much more. The second single from Ten was ‘Even Flow’. It is a song about homelessness. More importantly, it is a song that tells the story of a homeless man from the perspective of the man living on the street. The empathy comes through in the lyrics as Eddie relates the story. Eddie Vedder had befriended a homeless man in Seattle. He was a Vietnam War vet. He took the time to get to know the man and understand his struggles. While Pearl Jam was working on what would become Ten, the man; whose name was also Eddie, died. Vedder, who heard of his friend Eddie’s death while touring was so moved by the story that he wrote ‘Even Flow’. It is vintage Pearl Jam. It’s angry and it is from the heart.

Here is an example of how Eddie Vedder has introduced this song through the years.

“I thought I’d throw in a bit of street education while you still have an open mind….Right across the street there’s a little homeless community that lives under the bridge. You should just know that those people ain’t all crazy and sometimes it’s not their fault. This song is called ‘Even Flow’.”

Eddie Vedder

Variations on this presentation have gone on through the years, but one thing remains the same. Eddie Vedder has always stood behind his words. When he has something to say, he will say it, and people will listen.

In Canada, there is estimated to be 235,000 homeless people. This number is staggering enough but then consider that number could be five times higher if it is extended to the number of people who have experienced homelessness sometime in the past five years. There are several offshoots to this point because oftentimes homelessness is just the result. There is a clear link to varying forms of drug addiction, mental health issues, sexual and physical abuse and exploitation, and most obviously joblessness. The answer is not to marginalize the homeless. More steps need to be taken to provide support through programs. Steps have been taken to improve on this situation in major cities across this country, but it is an uphill battle. We need to pay attention. It is our problem as a compassionate country. Do your best to help in some small way. There are many ways to help through charities and social programs.

In the United States, these numbers are more than ten times higher. I always find this to be ironic. A country that considers themselves to be a ‘Christian’ nation allows this to happen. It makes me shake my head that a country that bristles at the concept of ‘socialism’ claims to be a follower of the teachings of Jesus Christ. By definition JESUS WAS A SOCIALIST! How many different examples do you need to understand the hypocrisy? In some ways this is another story entirely, but in others it is a clear indication as to the source of the problem. Until society changes and accepts their role in helping to support the most vulnerable in our communities, nothing will ever change. No amount of praying on Sunday and cherry picking passages from a bible will ever help.

Don’t get me wrong…Canada is only marginally better. It’s just that our social safety net is more supportive. My concern in this country is the people who resent the more dollars we pay in taxes to give people a hand up when needed. We call them ‘conservatives. We need to change. We need to move forward…together. We need to bring everyone along for the ride. .

Here is a fun version of ‘Even Flow’ by a band called Little Feather who do something called Drive Thru Concerts. This recording is good. The only problem is they went to the homophobic restaurant known as Chick-Fil-A, and it is clearly overdubbed. Still a great cover though.

Before I leave you, here are the lyrics. They are important.

Freezin’ rests his head on a pillow made of concrete again ooh yeah
Oh feelin’ maybe he’ll see a little betters any days ooh yeah
Oh hand out faces that he sees come again ain’t that familiar
Oh dark grin he can’t help when he’s happy he looks insane

Even flow
Thoughts arrive like butterflies
Oh he don’t know, so he chases them away
Someday yet he’ll begin his life again
Life again, life again

Kneelin’ looking through the paper though he doesn’t know to read, ooh yeah
Oh, prayin’, now to something that has never showed him anything
Oh, feelin’, understands the weather or that winters on its way
Oh, ceilings, few and far between all the legal halls of shame, yeah

Even flow
Thoughts arrive like butterflies
Oh, he don’t know, so he chases them away

Someday yet he’ll begin his life again
Oh whispering hands, gently lead him away
Him away, him away
Yeah
Woo
Oh yeah yeah fuck it up

Even flow
Thoughts arrive like butterflies
Oh, he don’t know, so he chases them away

Someday yet he’ll begin his life again
Oh whispering hands, gently lead him away
Him away, him away
Yeah!
Woo
Uh huh yeah
Yeah yeah mommy, mommy

Eddie Vedder

Eddie Vedder paints a picture. Take time and consider the subject.

The ‘gentle hands that whisper homelessness away’ should not be death.

The Promised Land – Happy 70th birthday to #BruceSpringsteen. A brief reflection on his importance through today’s feature song. #MusicisLife #TedTocksCovers #EddieVedder

Happy 70^th Birthday to the one and only Bruce Springsteen.

‘The Boss’

Today’s feature is a Bruce Springsteen classic. ‘The Promised Land’. It represents Bruce in a nutshell. He has always written ‘For Everyman’, in pursuit of their desires to overcome adversity and transcend their limitations and achieve something bigger. Through 50 years of music, no artist has captured the essence of the day to day life of Americans as well as Bruce Springsteen. In Bruce’s songs there is always hope. Some characters break the chains and move on, and sadly others fail miserably. This is what makes Springsteen’s songs so real. There is not always a happy ending, but when there is, the collective known as his fans celebrate the success. Just watch the video. These fans in Barcelona, Spain are with Bruce Springsteen and the E Street Band for every note. You gotta love the harmonica intro. Bruce never does anything half way.

Here are the lyrics.

On a rattlesnake speedway in the Utah desert
I pick up my money and head back into town
Driving ‘cross the Waynesboro county line
I got the radio on and I’m just killing time
Working all day in my daddy’s garage
Driving all night chasing some mirage
Pretty soon little girl I’m gonna take charge

The dogs on Main Street howl
‘Cause they understand
If I could take one moment into my hands
Mister I ain’t a boy, no, I’m a man
And I believe in a promised land

I’ve done my best to live the right way
I get up every morning and go to work each day
But your eyes go blind and your blood runs cold
Sometimes I feel so weak I just want to explode
Explode and tear this whole town apart
Take a knife and cut this pain from my heart
Find somebody itching for something to start

The dogs on Main Street howl
‘Cause they understand
If I could wrench one moment into my hands
Mister I ain’t a boy, no, I’m a man
And I believe in a promised land

Well there’s a dark cloud rising from the desert floor
I packed my bags and I’m heading straight into the storm
Gonna be a twister to blow everything down
That ain’t got the faith to stand its ground
Blow away the dreams that tear you apart
Blow away the dreams that break your heart
Blow away the lies that leave you nothing but lost and brokenhearted

The dogs on Main Street howl
‘Cause they understand
If I could take one moment into my hands
Mister I ain’t a boy, no I’m a man
And I believe in a promised land

And I believe in a promised land
And I believe in a promised land

Bruce Springsteen

For Bruce Springsteen, the essence of ‘The Promised Land’ was written while he and his soul brother Steve Van Zandt were on a trip through the desert and harsh terrain of Utah and Nevada. His photographer Eric Meola made the group a trio. They flew into Salt Lake City, Utah and then rented a red Ford Galaxy and drove. For Springsteen the trip was an opportunity to see the America of his dreams. A time to embrace the heartlands. The trip coincided with the death of one of his heroes; Elvis Presley, so his desire to write was at an emotional high. He managed to write a lot of songs that would later come out on his 1978 album Darkness on the Edge of Town, including ‘The Promised Land’. Within a month of the trip Springsteen arrived at the Record Plant studio with the beginnings of the song we know today. This is where the story of Bruce Springsteen, the perfectionist enters.

On the first day of recording in September of 1977 he and the E Street Band did 3 takes. A month later he came back to the studio with some structural alterations and several adjustments to the lyrics. In all they did 20 takes. The song went through the studio for mixing and Springsteen halted it again. He wanted Steve Van Zandt’s guitar solo to come in after Clarence Clemons saxophone solo. In the initial version the guitar solo had been edited out. The problem was, it had already been sent for mastering. What ‘The Boss’ wants, ‘The Boss’ gets. As a result of the change side 2 of the record was remastered to accommodate this change. There is no arguing that the painstaking efforts at perfection work. Here is the studio version.

In the live version I shared at the outset you will notice Steve Van Zandt’s solo was replaced with a harmonica solo. This is a prime example of Bruce Springsteen the showman. Watch how he takes the opportunity to engage with his adoring audience. This is Bruce Springsteen. He relates to his fans through his music and through his words. There are millions of fans and they get it. What a performer. We are lucky to have him. His perspective has given us insight into the mindset of real people for over 45 years of songwriting and performance. If you want to read one of the best rock and roll autobiographies ever written, check out ‘Born to Run’. To no one’s surprise Bruce Springsteen pours his soul into the book and you come away from reading it feeling like you know him. It is just like his music…honest; truly genuine. Before I move on, here is a stripped down acoustic version. This is special.

I have the pleasure of working with Tony. I met him through work. Tony is the biggest Bruce Springsteen fan I know. He reflects Bruce’s music in every way. He is the guy Bruce wants to relate to. Tony totally gets it. He could relate his life through Bruce Springsteen songs and take you along for the ride. He knows the deep tracks and the meaning behind every song. He quotes passages and explains the meaning. His passion for the artist is fascinating, but it is so real just like Bruce’s music. He has made me see Springsteen in a different light. Tony is a hard working, family man. He is fiercely devoted. He adores his wife and loves his children; two sons and a daughter. Every waking minute of every day is spent being the best he can be. He coaches hockey at a high level. Not his kids. Kids he doesn’t even know, but he becomes like a surrogate father, or uncle, or best friend. He has done this for 30 years. Through those years he has had the opportunity to coach his sons in different capacities, but his love for the sport keeps him going. He can tell you success stories of kids he coached who went on to some pretty special accomplishments. He relates these stories with pride. Not because of what he did, but because of what they did. Tony has known tragedy, but he is a fighter. He perseveres. He is strong, and he is always focused on rising above adversity and transcending dreams and making his goals reality. He is the kind of guy you want in your corner. He can drive you crazy, but he can make you laugh. One off the cuff quip about his favourite hockey player can set him off on a half hour tirade, while me and my co-workers wink at each other and smile. Because of who he is, he is a friend to many, and in many ways, he is the guy Bruce Springsteen is speaking to when he writes and performs. As Bruce Springsteen packs arenas and stadiums worldwide, he is playing to thousands and millions of Tonys. You can see the adulation. These are the people that keep Bruce Springsteen so vital at 70 years old. It is a sight to behold. We are lucky to live in a time where such an amazing artist is so prolific.

I’ve done my best to live the right way
I get up every morning and go to work each day
But your eyes go blind and your blood runs cold
Sometimes I feel so weak I just want to explode
Explode and tear this whole town apart
Take a knife and cut this pain from my heart
Find somebody itching for something to start

Bruce Springsteen

For today’s cover version I am going to another artist who manages to galvanize his core audience. To no one’s surprise he also adores Bruce Springsteen. I am talking about Eddie Vedder of Pearl Jam. The man is amazing. I have said it before and I will say it again. Eddie could cover any act and do it well. Over an above his own library, Eddie channels other artists as well as anyone. Here he is with Sleater Kinney.

Live each day to the fullest. Your hopes and dreams are always within reach.

Keep Me in Your Heart – A beautiful message from #WarrenZevon and a brief story behind The Wind. #MusicisLife #TedTocksCovers #EddieVedder #TheWailinJennys

“If you’re lucky people will like one thing you do early and one thing you do just before you drop dead.”

Warren Zevon

In my opinion today’s song is one of the most beautiful songs ever written. ‘Keep Me in Your Heart’ by Warren Zevon is dripping with emotion. It represents one of the last things he did “before he dropped dead”. It has such a heartfelt delivery that virtually every time I listen to it, I get a lump in my throat. On many occasions I have been moved to tears. Just writing this post had me wiping tears away. When a songwriter can convey this emotion through his words, he has accomplished the pinnacle of artistic achievement, in my opinion. At this point it transcends art and moves to another place in the cultural spectrum. I say all this knowing that to many, Warren Zevon is a bit of an unknown commodity. To me he is one of the best songwriters ever. Yes…EVER. On my list of favourites he resides at #3 behind only Neil Peart of Rush and John Prine. I also acknowledge that he is not in the same realm as Bob Dylan, but my list does not speak as much to being prolific as it does preference. Warren Zevon’s lyrics are intelligent beyond belief. They reflect an acerbic sense of humour that makes you laugh out loud. He is a master at self- deprecation and he is brutally honest in his condemnation of anything corrupt or unjust. Oh, how I wish Warren Zevon was still alive today. He would cut Donald Trump down to the core, eat his stupidity for breakfast and spit out the seeds. As I write this post it occurs to me that Warren Zevon is to songwriting, what George Carlin was to comedy. He was a philosopher. He was a sociologist. He was a comedian. He was a man who tested the limits. He was a man who rode a tidal wave of personal disaster. He was an asshole to some. To many others he was a best friend. He is irreplaceable. He is missed.

Warren Zevon died on this day in 2003. He was diagnosed with mesothelioma in 2002 and despite a valiant battle he succumbed to the disease a year later.

Today’s feature song is ‘Keep Me in Your Heart’ from his 12^th and final studio album The Wind. My friend Erin turned me on to this album. It was released in 2003, less than two weeks before Warren Zevon’s death. The timing was perfect in a morbid sense. I was just getting back into music after about a decade of fatherhood and family responsibilities. I had been a big fan of Zevon’s music in the early to mid ‘80s and I followed the insane chronicles of his antics. I lost track of him in the ‘90s because I was otherwise focused. When Erin lent me the CD and told me the story surrounding its release, I took a much deeper dive into his music. What a ride.

When Warren Zevon learned he had a terminal illness he was determined to put together a final studio album. Fortunately, his record label; Artemis gave him a generous budget and he set out to bring as many of his friends together as possible. Check out this list:

Guitars – Ry Cooder, Bruce Springsteen, Brad Davis, Randy Mitchell, Tommy Shaw, David Lindley, Mike Campbell and Joe Walsh

Bass – Jorge Calderon and Reggie Hamilton

Vocals – Billy Bob Thornton, Dwight Yoakam, Bruce Springsteen, John Waite, Don Henley, Timothy B. Schmidt, Jordan Zevon, Jackson Browne, T Bone Burnett, Tom Petty and Emmylou Harris

Drums and Percussion – Don Henley, Jim Keltner, Steve Gorman and Luis Conte

Piano – James Raymond

Saxophone – Gil Bernal

Not only is this one of the best farewell albums ever recorded it stands as simply one of the best. Every track is sensational. The musical contributions from the group listed above is jaw dropping. Every player brought their A game.

There are a few noteworthy items about The Wind. Its significance was recognized by the music industry. It was awarded a Grammy for Best Contemporary Folk Album. A rather odd category, but the Grammys are famous for extending classifications in order to see an artist recognized (see Jethro Tull winning Best Heavy Metal album over Metalica in 1989). In a more suitable category, Warren Zevon and Bruce Springsteen shared a Grammy for Best Rock Vocal Performance (Group or Duo). This was for ‘Disorder in the House’ which is not only one of the most brilliant attacks on the American political climate ever written; it still remains relevant to this day with lines like:

It’s the home of the brave
And the land of the free
Where the less you know
The better off you’ll be

Warren Zevon

The recognition noted above served as the only awards he won that night but it must be noted that songs from The Wind were nominated for three additional awards. This included ‘Keep Me in Your Heart’.

Further to the magnificent opus, Zevon was very careful in his track selection and a listing was left open for a cover of ‘Knocking on Heaven’s Door’ by Bob Dylan. How appropriate. Warren Zevon was acknowledged by Bob Dylan as one of his favourite songwriters. On many occasions Dylan covered Warren Zevon in his live performances as a salute.

All of this has been said and I have barely mentioned today’s feature song. Maybe this will give you a sense of how good the album truly is. ‘Keep Me in Your Heart’ was the only song on The Wind that he wrote after learning of the terminal diagnosis. It was written for his girlfriend at the time; Kristen. Knowing what a special presence his ex-wife Crystal was in his life, I suspect some of the sentiment was reserved for her. This goes without mentioning his son Jordan and daughter Ariel and Zevon’s twin grandsons who were born after his diagnosis. When it all comes down to it the song is from Warren’s heart. The rest is purely up to our interpretation. It was recorded in the final stages of the album’s production. Oftentimes, Warren barely had the energy to stand up, let alone sing. He was exhausted and weak, but he was determined. Ultimately, the studio was moved to his home to make things easier. What shines through is Warren’s humility. He speaks of wanting to write something for the people who loved him; the people he loved…the people who remain. He was concerned it may come across as a “woe is me song”. Here are the lyrics.

Shadows are falling and I’m running out of breath
Keep me in your heart for a while
If I leave you it doesn’t mean I love you any less
Keep me in your heart for a while

When you get up in the morning and you see that crazy sun
Keep me in your heart for a while
There’s a train leaving nightly called, “When all is said and done”
Keep me in your heart for a while

Sha-la-la-la-la-la-la-la-la-la-lo
Keep me in your heart for a while
Sha-la-la-la-la-la-la-la-la-la-lo
Keep me in your heart for a while

Sometimes when you’re doing simple things around the house
Maybe you’ll think of me and smile
You know I’m tied to you like the buttons on your blouse

Keep me in your heart for a while
Hold me in your thoughts, take me to your dreams
Touch me as I fall into view
And when the winter comes, keep the fires lit

And I will be right next you
Engine drivers headed north to Pleasant Street
Keep me in your heart for a while
These wheels keep turning but they’re running out of steam

Keep me in your heart for a while
Sha-la-la-la-la-la-la-la-la-la-lo
Keep me in your heart for a while
Sha-la-la-la-la-la-la-la-la-la-lo
Keep me in your heart for a while

Keep me in your heart for a while

Warrn Zevon and Jorge Calderon

The resulting piece of music is presented in a very clean way. It is not over produced. It is just Warren Zevon, his close friend Jorge Calderon and Jim Keltner. Despite his deteriorating condition, Zevon completed the vocal in only three takes. It closes out the album. The lyrics were written with the help of Jorge Calderon. Through this piece Warren Zevon essentially presided over his own funeral. What a musical moment. It is definitely not “woe is me”.

Fade to black.

If you have some time to spare, check out this fascinating documentary video that shows the incredible process surrounding the making of The Wind. You can feel the love.

If you want a shorter version of what an impact Warren Zevon had on the people closest to him read this post from Ted Tocks in December, (Mutineer). It provides an account of a special relationship between Warren Zevon and David Letterman.

As we move into the cover versions of today’s feature, it should start with a perfect combination. Here Eddie Vedder gives a tip of the hat to David Letterman. Vedder thanks Letterman for exposing him to the music of Warren Zevon. Then he plays a stunning version of ‘Keep Me in Your Heart’.

The acknowledgements rained down from many industry related people and the outpouring of adulation has continued through the years. Here is a performance from a great Canadian act called The Wailin’ Jennys. They are another group you should check out when you get an opportunity.

No matter who performs Warren Zevon’s songs the essence of the message filters through. For today’s song the message is clear.

“All good stories end in death.”

Warren Zevon

“Enjoy every sandwich”

Warren Zevon